Mood: restless
Latest happy moment: Seein a link to my blog on Isheeta's! :)
Realization: my writing is always better when I'm in moods of true angst
Insight: this post should be good - I can feel the angst gutted in me
So you're curious? Why is she so restless... come on boys & girls.. isn't it obvious. I need a man. Yes. I've decided that I've waited long enough - he better show up soon because otherwise I may have to resort to other measures.. is there such a thing as a muslim nunery? I made a pack with a friend to 'run to a nunery' as soon as we got sick of the search.. well what happenned? She got married almost a year ago. Yep that was the last time I was a bridesmaid... get this that was the third time - remember the saying: always a bridesmaid never a bride - it fit me completely! But.. get this, another friend mentioned to me that I'll be a bridesmaid at her upcoming wedding, ohh god another one.. And then another friend is getting married this fall and it's highly possible I'll be in the bridal party then too.. geez louis. I'm getting sick of this... and why don't any of my wonderful friends have cute guys attending their wedding? Why oh why???
Well anyways.. rant I shall not about weddings. My rant today is supposed to be about culture and guys today. I'm a muslim gal in Canada. I'm just looking for someone who can attest to the same values I do - AND have a personality AND be okay looking. I'm not even asking for a cutey - although that would help matters along quite a bit. I'm just saying, be kewl.. not highschool cool, just geeky kewl. Chillaxed but religious, with values and a sense of confidence. Why is it so *freaking* hard to find that?? HUH?? Give me a good reason..
Ok.. I have limitations beyond that - but even if I didn't - where would I find these other random men? My friends keep saying "just open yourself up to any muslim". My response "and exactly how will that help?". See the point is this: I only got a couple of friends that are muslim that don't go to my mosque.. and they're just as disatisfied with their selection of guys as I am - so what use will it be? Sure - I could use a little more Shaadi.com and hook-up with some local guys that way.. but heck.. that is not the goal here - I'm trying to find someone I can develop a sustainable relationship with. You know the type that won't ditch you after 3 emails (if it gets that far!!)
well.. I'm sorry. this post was supposed to be good but I'm sleepy now and writing has just made me cranky. Sorry. Wait.. Why AM I apologizing? This is the way I FEEL!
goodnite folks
1 comment:
Stop thinking about how hard it is to find guys. I hate that line, my mom uses it on me.
If u go 2 a blog by a muslim single guy, he will complain about the exact same thing. The amount of guys/girls out there isn't the problem.
its about us knowing ourself, figuring out wat we can live with, what we can't. Meeting people helps us figure this out. usually being scared of future leads to being picky.
I am going thru similar journey as u (from falling for wrong guy, to meeting random pplz, to restlessness over this crap).
but every step of the way i have learned something new about me. everything has a reason for happening.
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