how long, how long must I sing this song?

Current Mood: Unsure.
Summary of thoughts: Proceed with caution? don't proceed at all??
Random Advice:
(A) Play hard to get
(B) Keep yourself in the game by constant communication
(C) Be optimistic.

Lets get to the story now.
I got an email today. Yes. it's been awhile. Did I tell you how long it's been? Since departure, it has been exactly 3 weeks. Since the "expected arrival date" it's been 11 days. I honestly, dind't expect anything till a week ago friday (earliest wednesday). So the delay was a week longer then I had hoped. But what I got today was not something that brought my spirits up in the least bit. If anything it made me second guess what I liked so much about him in the first place. A friend of mine tells me (actually a couple of friends tell me that) I'm TOO NEGATIVE. In reality, I don't think that's actually true. Anywho's reading his response (not to the last two emails I had sent, but to one that he'd replied to in short) I got the feeling that, HE is the one who's negative. The more I think about it, I've decided that I just like negative people cuz they're like myself. My good friends are not the cheery type. I have a couple who are just that, but I only am around them in small doses and they don't really influence my life more then me being very happy to see them.

I'm digressing. The point is that his email didn't give me anything to go by. It was utterly generic. Ofcourse, it summarized the typical Muslim speed dating scene that occurs in our community - his first experience with it. I wasn't really surprised that he went (by choice or by force, who will ever really know?). If there was such a function here, I'd be there too (probably a combination of having too and keeping an open mind that it wouldn't be as bad as last time (locally atleast)).

Other then that, numerous complains were written, a health claim attesting to the "reason"? as to why I hadn't heard back, but nothing more then that. Not even a question or two for me to respond too. Utterly generic, no reference to ME specifically other then my email address. If he hadn't replied within a previous message, I would have suspected that it was a mass email synopsis of his trip to all his contacts. So thats it.

Now, the question is what do I do? My gut feel is to leave it alone for awhile. See if he comes back with more to say at a later time (sometime next week). I would like to talk/ catch up and see if I can get into the swing of things again - feel something - feel anything but I'm not sure it's the brightest idea for two reasons. Reason #1 - I may still be too angry to actually give him a fair shot. Being pissed off (once again) isn't truly putting an honest effort into the situation. Reason #2 - I don't want to give up more of my heart to this. The disappearing act has already happenned twice. Twice!!! I feel like with those two and the whole awkward convo/email that we've hit our three strikes. You're out at three strikes right?? Or are their Nine Innings? I haven't quite figured that part out yet. But the point is that if I let myself fall again.. getting back up will be MUCH much harder then before.

Ok, I'm too tired to write anymore and you're probably sick of listening to me blab. And to think, that I haven't even been thinking about this THAT much this week! I really have managed to keep my brain to a low level of obsessive compulsiveness.

Goodnight folks. Appreciate any comments.

CdnMuslim girl - proud of our Canadian female athletes, they rocked this Olympics!